Friday, December 09, 2011

December 9th Friday: Some good days again!

December 9th Friday
I realize that I have not put anything up on the blog for over a week, my Facebook gets little updates but I realize that does not help here! 

First let me say that the” I heart Mom” shirt mentioned in the previous post was a success... so much so that her Daddy might be starting to get jealous. At least now we can rotate and wash her clothes!

Also pertaining to that last post, and way more important than the shirt thing, she pooped. Hooray! Thank you to everyone who responded with ideas of things to try, I received suggestions from 6 different people! I’m not sure how much detail everyone really wants to know about this sort of thing but let’s just say that after 14 days of no movements we were WAY past using psyllium husks. Let me assure you that Charlotte is on heavy dose of a lactulose every day. We started using suppositories daily, and when those didn’t work we stepped it up to micro enemas, when those didn’t work we were forced to pull out the big ones.  I will spare you of the more colourful version of that saga and just say that once things finally started moving everything seemed to get a little more under control.  It was a very tense couple of days, poor little girl.
We feel that we have had a tremendous answer to our prayers. Two weeks ago Charlotte was lying on the couch, unable to move, not eating, and sleeping all day. Her doctors here had been in contact with the palliative care team up in Calgary and they said that she likely only had a few days left. I mentioned last week that she was eating a little more and up a few times a day. Well I am extremely relieved to say that over this past week she has only gotten stronger! She is eating more and up and playing most of the day. She has the occasional nap, maybe every other day- we try to encourage it but some days it’s a fight, she is feeling too good to sleep! We have been able to sneak her steroids back down a little this week; it is still a bigger dose than it was three weeks ago. She is doing so well. She has really amazed us all. I’m not sure what the future has in store for us, we are still taking this journey one day at a time. But we are praying that we will see improvements each day and she will get stronger.

We have been so blessed that Charlotte and our family has such wonderful care. We live in a very generous community and feel very well taken care of. Charlotte has two amazing paediatricians here that are working with her care team up in Calgary. Two weeks ago they had been stopping by our house twice a day to check on her, and it’s not that we don’t like their visits, be we feel very relieved that the frequency of visits has diminished to twice a week now. We also have two incredible nurses taking turns here during the week; it’s nice to be able to just snuggle up with Charlotte while someone else is busy vacuuming or cleaning up in my kitchen! It’s especially nice to have someone else be the bad guy when its suppository or enema time! Although Charlotte thinks that our pastor comes over just to make her pause her movie, we really appreciate that he has been coming by daily to encourage and pray with us all. Many wonderful meals are being dropped off throughout the week, this eases up the grocery shopping, meal planning and preparation time allowing us more snuggle and play time. The girls are also receiving some wonderful little pick-me-ups in the mail, cards, letters and especially stickers are something to look forwards to in the mornings.
I love reading your comments, emails and fb messages. I realize that it’s awkward when you don’t know what to say, and that’s ok- most of the time I don’t know what to say either.  Old acquaintances that I see at the store ask “how are you?” such a simple thing... but it starts my mind reeling... well, I think, that depends on what you know, do you know about the past year and a half? Have you heard the horrible part? If you have, I can honestly say that (taking everything into account) this week’s been pretty good, an improvement or something... But if you have not heard any of that where do I start? Telling you ’I’m good’ is not very accurate! I size you up and think how much do you really want to know?... I’m sure I don’t get it right as often as I would like. Some people want more when I answer that things are ‘pretty good this week’ they say “really” with raised eyebrows and look like they are waiting for me to tell them the truth. But the answer that I give is sometimes all I can give; otherwise they might have to deal with an emotional Chernobyl.  So let me say that it’s REALLY ok if all you write is that you are thinking of us or keeping us in your prayers... it’s just really nice to hear that we have so much support.

We got our Christmas tree up and decorated and the girls have already gotten fully spoiled! Thank you to Alexander’s Quest for an exciting array of craft supplies, books and toys and the fun playmobil toys the girls are enjoying them immensely.

I had more to say tonight... but I just realized that it is 1am and so I will post this as is... maybe check back in a couple of days- I will try to get this edited and finished, or at least a picutre or two added!
Good night!

Tuesday, November 29, 2011

November 29th Tuesday: Just a few pictures

Here are a few pictures from the last couple of days. Altogether they look a bit misleading, Charlotte spends a big part of each day sleeping...of course its when shes up and playing that out comes the camera.
Supper time Monday the 29th, yes, she was actually asleep. She ate quite a bit of KD and cream cheese first though so that was great. I would like to point out the shirt she is wearing... she has worn it all week, it has been a favourite since the day she got it, lately she insists on wearing it. When its time to get dressed in the morning she starts tugging on her jammies saying "Shirt, shirt." In case I'm not sure which shirt she means she will point at the picture on the wall of her wearing it from last winter. This morning I told her it was dirty and in the laundry and she had a little redhead/steroid fit and yelled "SHIRT SHIRT SHIRT" at the top of her lungs. Out of the laundry it came.

 Here we are just today (Tuesday the 29th) doing some crafts, decorating little trinket boxes. She found a sparkly purple heart in the sticker pile and showed me, "Shirt!" Yes it looked exactly like it, so we decorated her box to look like her shirt.
 Here she is again after supper, after sleeping most of the day today it was nice to see her up playing for a couple of hours. Making sure all her kitties got their milk, maybe she thought that way she had to drink less herself? Thanks to everyone for the gifts for the girls, they are loving the crafts, stickers and especially the kitties.
 I heart DAD, I heart DAD, I heart DAD... its been like this for a year. There is no denying that she is a daddies girl. Today I had an idea. I picked up some iron on butterflies to make the girls matching shirts... when I noticed that Charlotte's shirt had a little heat at the bottom! Ha ha! I'm feeling so clever, now watch tomorrow morning shes going to have a fit. I'm going to have to try really hard to not take it personally. I know she hearts Mommy too!
Charlotte's doctors think that she has been fairly steady this past week. Words are chosen carefully to not give the impression that she has improved but her condition has not worsened. One of our biggest concerns is that she hasn't pooped in a long time, all the different drugs that shes on coupled with the fact that shes not eating and drinking well, and that she is not mobile... we are in trouble. Another concern is pain relief she is on an oral morphine and a big steroid dose that is keeping her comfortable, but it always seem to need juggling. The morphine is one of the reasons why she is so sleepy all day. We appreciate your continued prayers for healing for Charlotte.

Sunday, November 27, 2011

November 27th Sunday: Tears...

November was great right up until the middle of the night on Wednesday the 23rd.

Charlotte woke up at about 2am with a shrill yelp and started throwing up. She did this 5 times throughout the night until about 6am when things finally calmed down and she slept a little. That morning she had a hard time to fully wake up, she was so groggy and sleepy. A fury of calls and doctor visits and we changed her drugs around, hoping that would make her feel better. Codeine was switched over to morphine and that steroid that I mentioned last post, that she has been getting a .5ml dose twice a day was boosted to a 2ml dose three times a day.

Our doctors here have been in close contact with the palliative care team at the Childrens Hospital. We were been told that it looks like her body has finally had enough, they think that she is on her last few days, maybe a week. I cant begin to tell you what that was like to hear. Days of tears.

In the few days since then we have had some improvements, her drugs are keeping her comfortable. Each day she seems to eat a little more, sit up and be a little more interactive too. For the most part she seems to be very peaceful and comfortable. A constant roller coaster.

We continue to pray. Please pray for us all.